Happy Birthday To Me!

I'm now on a dial up connection at home, and I tell you.. it's a nightmare. I've got used to high speed connection at work already.

I came online just now only to find that man has left me a beautiful birthday song on Yahoo IM - even though 11 hours too early. Men are so hopeless in this field. :D

Happy birthday to you
Swashed tomatows on stew
Bread and butter in the gutter
happy birthday to you

Have a happy day
- M

I'm not planning to celebrate today. I'm just going to enjoy my usual Sunday at home with my family since I haven't seen them for over a month. Big (I hope) party will be on Monday at the pub. Amazing thing is, I and Rose share the same birthday. 6 years apart. So, I'm inviting some of my friends to go down to the pub tomorrow evening. And we'll have a great time. Bosses will not expect me to turn up at work before midday on Tuesday - if at all. :D

Fingers crossed no drama for a change.

Shit shit shit!!

I tell you now.. Shit!!

Ok, I'm feeling better now. :-D

Last Monday was actually a public holiday here. And we made an appointment with an applicant for a job interview. To cover my current bleedin' job. 9 AM, all confirmed. My bosses, although very busy with a client based in Bangkok, turned up with no hassles.

Tick, tock, tick, tock.

Where's the goddamn candidate now? 30 minutes passed, I rang her on her mobile. Once she knew where I was calling from, she went quiet and hung up on me!

Can you believe that?!?

My Aussie boss rang her from his mobile a few hours later, but she didn't answer. We're thinking letting her current employer know she's looking for a new job!

This is just so weird. I have never been late for a job interview before. If I want a job, I show them that I do. I've been dealing with so many interviews during my 9 months here. You wouldn't believe how unreliable some applicants could be.

Then, yesterday, I was quite sick so I took the morning off. 4 PM, my Aussie boss rang me and gave me a top urgent task. I had to borrow ten table cloths and twenty napkins from the hotel next door.. and brought everything to the client in Sukhumvit by 5 PM.

Lots of urgent phone calls... while I had two effin' spa therapists in the office waiting for me to have 5 minutes to speak to them... 4:34 PM, I was sitting in the hotel's GM office waiting for all the stuff.

When the whole thing arrived.... Holy crap. It's HEAVY!! But no choice, I had to take everything to the client's. So, I ran down Sukhumvit Road and hopped on the skytrain - with all that shit in my arms. My arms were shaking.

Off the skytrain, I took a motorbike taxi as I couldn't run with all that shit anymore. And thanks the goddamn motorbike boy, he rode past the soi!!!! So, I had to stop him and ran back to that soi... and ran down the soi to the client's.

4:58 PM, I reached the dining room at the client's.

I almost died.

Came back to the office with Aussie boss only to find out that that man left me a message on Yahoo IM. Talking about timing.

Today.... just when I thought everything was going very smoothly with another client in UAE. No, it couldn't be smooth.

It turned out the client doesn't want one of the three therapists we're sending over anymore - since it's been confirmed she's a trouble maker. Ok, now I can understand that. But this therapist, she's gone extra miles to get all her documents done. And spent at least 30,000 THB to get everything ready.

I don't know what to tell her. But Aussie boss will handle it. Problem is, I've replied to the client's email - quite nicely. But boss seemed not to be on the same mood. So, we'll see about that.

Tomorrow, I'm going to meet some people who want to hire us. I'll learn how boss handles these guys. Since we're expecting to turn them down as they're totally dodgy.

I'm cool

Very very cool.

After finding myself in that mess (there's more shite after my last entry but I would rather leave it at that), I got to talk to a very few friends. And they gave me some valuable advices/comments. And also spot on.

You see, it turned out to be a big fat cruel joke that went way too far. I always knew when he was joking - we've known each other for years, for heaven's sake. Not this time. Something still doesn't add up though. It just doesn't.

My good friend Ian said that he's not really convinced it's entirely a joke. Good point, my friend. All big things that Andrew said and did that night... that's what doesn't add up.

Oh, Ian also said that if I were in Las Vegas, I would likely be married.

My response was "Thank fcuk I'm in Thailand"

And then... after panicking big time, Rose pointed out that I just don't love Andrew. Mind you, Rose is a young girl. How on earth does she know all about this stuff? :-P

So, yeah, I've thought about it all. Be true and honest to myself. And I've found the answer. I'm in love with that man. That's who I have feelings for. Even though I'm a sad spinster who has no life whatsoever, I don't want to force anyone to love me. I deserve much better than that.

My job is going really great. I'm blessed to have met a few great friends. Not having a man of my own shouldn't be a big deal. I still have that man every three months anyway.

Ok, wait a few more years and my statement might be different. :-D

I'm confused

Last night I went down to the pub.. and met Andrew late at night.

Even though I've lost only a little weight (nowhere near 3 kgs), but I guess he quite liked what he saw last night. Anyway, I started teasing him about the marriage deal again. We had a really good laugh. He said all good things about me. And kind of got a little serious at some level. Also said some serious thing about... hmm... wanting to marry me.

Later that night, after a few beers, I took my ring off (from my right hand) and told him to use it for the time being. Minutes of teasing and joking and avoiding, he finally put it on my wedding finger.

Gotcha! :P

I stayed the night at his place. No dirty stuff please. We didn't shag. :D

He was so sweet and everything. Didn't even want me to come to work this morning!

After digesting it all and realising he was being pretty serious last night, I was in panic. I mean... no... it's not happening. And won't happen for quite a while.

Well, it's MY ring. So, basically, this doesn't count. So there. I'm cool now. But since he mentioned popping the question, having a reception both in Thailand and England, having kids, getting a pre-nuptial agreement, starting a business, etc..... You never know, my friend. It can happen anyday now.

You just never know.

Keep working!

I actually feel I haven't worked that hard, but still knackered. Must be seriously getting old.

Since I'll be promoted at work, I'm looking for a new Receptionist/Secretary to cover my current job. And I'll be trained to help with Consultant job. Woohoo!

The most important projects at the moment are really .... pain.... pain in you know where.

So many Ifs, Buts, etc. Life would be much easier if people could be a little more understanding. But like my boss said this afternoon - "What she wants and what she gets may not be the same" (we're talking about timeframe). So, well, I really hope that certain client will help make my life a bit easier.

Next Monday is another public holiday here in Thailand.. but I'll be working again. So will boss. Wah ha ha. This's bloody crazy. But surely, I'm going home this weekend. My Mum just rang the other day and I realised I haven't gone home for about a month now. Bad girl.

Apart from work.. going home.. well, there's that man. He'll be back here in 16 days. That'll be a few days after my birthday. So, oh well, I'm asking him if we can go away for the weekend. I want to go somewhere where we won't be able to work! I need some quiet time with him.

And... I don't know. I'll have to think it over. I've still got a deal with Andrew. Remember the guy who will marry me once I've lost 3 kgs? Yeah, well, the deal is still on. And I've lost some weight. I'm not losing any more at the moment, by choice. I'm having a second thought about it.

Oh I don't know...

I mean... Andrew is a very nice guy and everything. But I don't want to trap him this way.

And... hmm... that man is still on my mind. But... ok here it is. He's married. That's why I never reveal his identity. Anyway, so yeah, everything is such a mess at the moment.

But my good friend Ian keeps telling me to lose weight though.

Grrrr...

Will I ever cope?

I've been in a strange mood. The cool me seems to not be around much lately.

All the stress from work... and... the headache and heartache from Chris (for some unknown reasons, I can't cut him loose)... and...

My birthday is coming up.

I've got a thing for these stupid special occasions. My birthday is one of them.

I went out with quite a few girlfriends last year. It turned out to be a nightmare, although Andrew came to the club and got me a really nice birthday card. A very nice chap, that one.

And this year... I really want to celebrate it with that man. But he'll be in Saigon. And will be in Bangkok 3 days after that. So, I don't think I'm going to Hanoi. He'll be back here for work in three weeks anyway. (How much I will see him, that's another story)

So, there. I'm going to be alone on my birthday. I'm getting depressed already. So, I don't really know if I'll cope.

Oh beaches.. I miss those beaches..

Bloody hell. I just got back to Bangkok yesterday, but now miss Phuket already.

Oh well, we can't be on holiday all the time.

I don't now why, but even though I was dead tired yesterday, I came down to the pub... again.

But I didn't drink though. My body wouldn't be able to handle it.

And just for fun, I texted that man in Vietnam. I knew he didn't store my mobile number in that phone, only the Thailand mobile. And he actually rang to ask who it was.

Unbelievable.

I thought he would just text back to ask that question.

I was in the pub, so it's pretty noisy. He didn't recognise my voice until I swore "Dammit". Now that's what we call Romance.

He was really surprised that I still went to the pub, even though I had got to sleep for only an hour the night before. And kept telling me to go home to sleep. He was worried I wouldn't wake up in time for work the next day.

Around end of this month's my birthday. We're dying to see each other. So, I have to wait and see how he will sort it all out.

Strangely, we've actually missed each other so much this time.

Very odd indeed.

Travel in style with Thai Airways.. I guess

Got back from Phuket this morning and came straight to work..

I’m so totally knackered.

I didn’t have to pay for my flights this time. I redeemed the tickets from Thai Airways. Business Class for the first time. I wouldn’t ever pay that much for a domestic flight anyway.

On my way down to Phuket, they used Boeing 734. The plane was small, old and uncomfortable (it’s a surprise there) – even Business Class. The dinner was okay. The female flight attendants seemed to be more friendly than usual. So much that at one point, while I was trying to sleeping and holding myself as it’s a bit cold, a female flight attendant actually got me a blanket and put it on me. Now that’s very strange.

I spent half my time in Patong, and the other half in Kata. Met a few friends and we enjoyed our weekend together. I went out on the piss with a male friend of mine, also his mates. This’s a little embarrassing. You see, I tend to be quite naughty when I’m pissed. And usually make some speeches that, the next day, I wish everyone was so pissed they couldn’t remember a thing I said.

But for some reason, they have a damn good memory when it comes to my silly speeches – no matter how pissed they are.

Phuket is recovering. Slowly. It seems Patong has got back on its feet before others though. Sex always sells.

I just flew back to Bangkok this morning. My fight was at 7:05 AM, which meant I and my friend had to leave her house at 5:30 AM. While she couldn’t close her shop in Patong until 2:00 AM. So, basically, I got only one hour to sleep.

Once at the airport, I thanked her for taking care of me and chooed her away so she could get some sleep. No need to be stuck with me at the airport. Done with check-in and I headed to the lounge straight away. I needed coffee. Having never seen any other airline’s lounge at all, I am pretty sure that Thai Airways’ lounge in Phuket is one of the worst lounges on this planet.

I was so looking forward to getting on the plane. I could hardly keep my eyes open. It’s great that they used a bigger plane on this flight. It’s Boeing 747-400. I got a window seat on upper deck. This one was definitely nicer. Oh boy, I could really get some sleep before I headed to work.

But wait a minute, what’s that noise?!

Dear me… no, you’ve got to be kidding me…

There they were… two Aussie kids running around the upper deck screaming and crying.

Oh well…

So, I turned up at work with a totally dead brain. I was extremely slow today. And got so many things to do. Gosh, I don’t know how I managed to survive today.

But I really need to sleep now. So, I’m finishing this one… and will go to sleep dreaming about the lovely weekend I just had in Phuket.